Its been a funny old week and when I say funny, I don’t mean funny ha, ha. I suppose it started last Sunday when we finally managed to call in and see Vince and Geran. All my friends know I have a problem in just dropping into a friends house, I need to have an invite and then we would always be there, for me an open invite is something I have difficulty with, I suppose it could be from my time in Sales in particular cold calling. The amount of rejections you get and me being such a sensitive soul would feel it very deeply if someone turned me away. Stupid I know but all part of my complex nature.
Vince was in a bad way he had taken to his bed and didn’t want to see anyone. We remembered the last time we saw him which was for Geoff’s Vendemia when both he and Geran joined us for dinner. He had been having chemotherophy but was in good spirits. Although he looked a little frail there was no way that he was going to discuss the matter, or sit there feeling sorry for himself, he was there to enjoy himself and the company. Vince is a very gentle soul he touched your life on a deeper level than anyone else that I know. He wasn’t pushy or in your face, he was a true gentleman. We were unable to see him, which for us was sad because we both could feel that it would be the last opportunity we would have.
On Thursday whilst we were having dinner at Diana’s we were told the sad news that Vince had passed away a few days earlier. Diana’s daughter is the post lady for that area and had bumped into Geran who had told her the news. Even though you know that it might happen it doesn’t make it any easier when it actually happens.
Having been on my own a lot this week, Monday and Saturday Richard was away fitting Fast Internet Systems and even when he was here, we both seemed to find our own space in the house. So to some extent I have been feeling very lonely, a little bit lost and sad. Being an intuit means that I can sense the feelings of others, often I can get a lot of information from them past, present and future so at times like this I can really feel that sense of loss and sadness.
When someone you know dies it can bring up your own feelings of loss, it certainly has had me doing some deep contemplation. I lost a son many years ago so with Vince passing over on his next journey it made me think about the immortality of life. Life is so precious but also so fragile none of us know when or how our life will end.
Vince and Geran were very fortunate they had a wonderful relationship, a close deep understanding of each other. I look around and see how people treat other people, how sometimes without even knowing it we can hurt each other. I have had to be careful because depression lingers around the corner waiting for the opportunity to pounce. It is a known fact that we humans cause more deaths and pain to each other than any natural disaster or any act of God and we call ourselves civilized – why?
I know that I cannot change the whole of the human race, but I can make a start I can change myself, my actions towards others we are all brothers and sisters, we should reach out our hands in support, friendship and love.
I know I have so much to be thankful for and I realize just how important life is, how important our loved ones are to us, and I make a personal vow to be more loving to all of those who share my life.
The sadness turns and starts to empower me, driving me forward glad that I had the pleasure of knowing Vince, and albeit a small part, but so fortunate to have shared some time with this very gentle man.
Yesterday was Vince’s funeral, it was held at the beautiful church at Tiglio (article here) there wasn’t a person without tears in their eyes, there ceremony was true to the life of Vince. His family and friends united shared their love and their sadness at the passing of this “Great Bloke” as Chris had called him.
He is a very much loved and miss gentle man.
R.I.P Vince.
Article by Sensone